Typo Queen

I am sure you are aware of my typo problem. I have actually dubbed myself The Typo Queen and have been for the past 5 years or so!!



I need to make you aware of the all time best typo, previously made in the blog "Blog renamed to: Do i love my Husband?

If you read through you will notice that you love your mom and dad not because they spayed you but because they nutured you!!!!

Obviously Nurtured was meant!

Oh what is that you say? I can edit my posts!! Ha ha you silly goose, then the whole point and a majority of the reason my blogs are even read will not exist for a typoless blog is not a blog published by Candy.

Blog Renamed to: Do I love my husband?

So to finish with the 90 blogs i have wrote about my husband and my feelings and my overused brain and my emotions spilling over into a sea of confusion.

Here is what i am thinking about tonight, and will admit this has been on my mind for awhile.

So think of for me a few close friends, your immediate family and one aquaintence. Ok got these people in mind? So i bet you have decided that your close friends are that becasue they possess qualities that you like and they make you feel better and make you want to be better, and your immediate family, although there is an underlying rule you kinda have to love them, i am sure the majority of people feel an enormous amount of love for thier dad or thier mom and why? I am betting it is because of how they nutured you and helped you grow and support you and are not judgemental. Among the million other things that they have that you love about them. Now the aquaintece (which i am not spelling corrctly at all and even am spelling differnt ways in this blog). Are there any qualities they possess, are you not around them enough or do you choose to not become closer becasue you know there is something lacking, or something that you do not find attractive about thsi person?


I have thought on numerous occasions; What is it about my husband that makes me love him? What does he do to make me better, a better person? I have made list of what he does to piss me off and what he does that i dont deserve and all the things he does that make me feel bad and ashamed and ugly. Not to say that he says things that make me feel good too but these bad things are more prevalant and sometimes i think are said in truth!

Isen't a partner suppose to better you!

After all these times of thinking and thinking and over thinking of things that Pedro does to make me feel better or to better me i have only come up with one thing.

He has put pressure on me to save money, and i am finally doing it! c Saving money is a really good thing and yes he could have done it a different way but i do know that all in all he only means good by it.

See i think to myself the other way around What do i have to offer my husband. If he were to anwser this question he would be able to anwser an extensive list of selfless tasks and deeds and errands and jobs that i have done in pure love and passion for him. He works all the time and so does not have any time to do anything he migt need to do during the day, and having Sat and Sun off this limits his time, and flexibilty!

Is this the person i am? I have begun to discover that i thrive on some sort of control. I thrive on the fact that i can and do and sometimes hate doing all these things for him. Yes i thrive to hate it!! Do you know what i mean.

I sometimes when there is nothing to do i do something anyway and tell him i did it and then expect something in return, i dont actually expect but would appreciate reciprication and in a form where i dont have to ask for it, becasue if i bring up the fact that i do this and i do that he puts it in my face that when he does something for someone its not becasue he is waiting for something in return. REALLY? I dont put it in his face for this reason i put it in his face because the one thing i ask in a month he gives me shit about. You would think that after 48 errands, 6 store stops, 8 dinners, 31 days of cleaning the house, 5 cd burnings, 13 more misc things done for him, he would be able to stop at the store and get milk!!!!

Ok i may be being a little dramatic ecasue he would stop at the store but some things i ask for are so invasive and intrusive and horribly daunting , of course if you know my husband you know very well he did not use any of those words to describe these tasks or task i ask of him. In Pedro's words its "i was going to but i forgot" "ohhhhh mummy Lo Siento, I am fucking tired"


Did you ever think of my feelings, and my needs i may be tired too but i still do it without complaint (for the most part).


Damn it why cant i be happy ?

And to my fellow bloggers / followerers . I honestly do not write all my problems on here for you to gibe me advice or support or even talk to me asbout all of it , i just do this to feel better by venting to Cyberspace which surprisingly works wanders!! So please Please do not feels as though you need to turn into my pyschologist /therapist just read and enjoy knowing you just may have it better then someone else!!! HAHA I am really not as depressed as i sound really!!!!

Really?

I found out today that my own insurance company has put a range of 15%-25% at fault on me due to negligance. HAH AAHAHAHHA aRE you fucking kidding~!!! I m so ripp roaring pissed i cant even begin to explain. I call my agent and speak with the one i always speak with and LOVE HER. She is going to try and help me out. Hopefully she will be able to becasue how the hell am i suppose to and why the fuck should ihave to spend a dime on this stupid acciedent when it was not my fault at all. RAAAAHHH why does life have to be so crappy sometimes!!! I know so many people who are so good but life craps on all of us!!
Can we get a break? Can people (you know who you are) have babies and can i not have insurance issues, and can all the good people get what they want nd deserve with out a hassle PLEASE~~!!

My Favorite of Everything!!

Movie: Rainman
Food: Ranch Dressing
Book (read): Skinny Bitch
Author: Meg Cabot/Mitch Albom
Television Show:
Reality-The Bachelor/Survivor
Drama-One Tree Hill
Game/Reality- AMazing Race
Sitcom-Scrubs
Body Part
Mine-feet
His (Rated G)-Arms (hugs)
His (Rated R)-Obviously
Color
House-Dark Beige
Clothes-Red
Car-Yellow
Flower: I have been searching I like light blue flowers and white one, i cant find what the name of my flowers that i had at my wedding are...roses obviously, but no favorites i guess.
Name
Boy-Jyeed/Jyid (dont know spelling yet)
Girl-Nataliana
Word: Wicked
Job: Anything with animals
Position (yes i went there and i am not shy) Male in chair Woman on top
Mode of Transportation: Horse
Animal: Horse
Tatoo: Horse
Restaurant
Fast Food-Arby's
Casual Chain-Longhorn (really?)
All time-La Tereza
Type of food (origin): Italian
Husband: Pedro
Kitchen Appliance: Ricer Maker
Pattern on a blanket: Animal Print~Zebra/Giraffe/Cheetah
Hobby: Crossword Puzzle
Thing to do at home: Watch TV/Write in my blog
Time of day: 1 hour after I awake (most of the day is still in front of me and i dont feel like i want to go back to bed)
Actor: Dustin Hoffman...2nd Edward Norton
Actress: Charlize Theron
Tree: Weeping Willow
Cartoon Character:Wylie E. Coyote
Hair Color: Red (not on men)
Car: 1971 Midnight Blue Chevy Nova Dashboard Ignition!
Song: "Adia" (sound and singer not lyrics)
Singer: For a very long time it was John Michael Montgomery, Now hmm I have to think bout it
Televison Channel: I had a stint with HGTV, i have always loved the The food Network, of course CBS has great Dramas and ABC, NBC as well. FOX too.
Piece of Clothing: Underwear (thongs, why do they look better then bikini bottoms?)

The Funniest Text i have ever recieved!!

You are going to have to forgive me for i dont believe this will be as funny for you as it was for me!! I just had to post this i laughed for a half hour.

So i was texting back and forth with a friend who lives pretty close to where i live, in CLocktower you know the big huge brick building with the huge clock!!

I say: Do you have any ranch you can throw over here

Response: yeah, but its low fat is that ok?

I say: Yeah Thats fine i am ready to catch it

Response: Better get your telescope out so you can see it.

I say: i can see the big dipper

Response; I can see your clock!!



LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Snow Day at Longhorn

SOOO, Today at work going in with hands full of snacks and activities prepared for a slow day , I step inside to an empty restaurant.
For the first 5 hours of work there were a total of 35 people that came through the restaurant, and that included a 10 top so really that translates to NO ONE. So the three of us that were on, played Phase 10, one of my favorite games. We ate cookies that some lovely lady brought in, we talked about not work and we played, it was very fun. I wish everyday was like this day. To sum up the day at 5 our new manager said he would buy us dinner for being there all day!! Wow what a sweet deal to tack on to this did nothing all day and got paid $2.93 an hour!!!

It got busy at dinner, i ended up making pretty ok money for the day!! it was a long day though and i am kinda lookin forward for just lunch tomorrow but watch because i am looking forward to that very thing, that very thing will not happen SOMEONE will call in and ask for me to ork for them, but thats ok. I had promised myslef that i would take all shifts that were asked of me becasue what else do i have to do? I only have this job and can work a maximum of 40 hours...oh wait acually i got hired on the spot no application, no interview at dream diner today!!! wish me luck and hope that i stick with it and most importantly hope its worh it!! i had to give up some of my lunch shifts to be able to work there, but if it is anything like i have heard/seen and smelled then it will busyyyy!! and thier uniforms haha sooo cute!!! its like a litle 50's dress!! i wanna a pink one!!

You absolutely need to try this!!!

Go to www.addictinggames.com then click on the Impossible Quiz.

This is hilarious!!

A good hint i can give you, think outside the box. REALLY!

AHH NO more NEGATIVITY!!

OK BLOG FOLLOWERS.......Stop me from being negative!!


So this morning I am headed down to The Dream Diner in Tyngsboro, they sounded promising on the phone. So we will see, wish me luck!!

Moods Change in an instant

Here I am trying to reconnect with my past with that great website facebook. So i am looking at it and i see this picture of a girl who looks to be at least 8 months pregant if not more. I clck on it and find out that it was someone in the grade below me who is now married to someone from my grade. Actually the person she is married to was the "pot head" of my grade "troublemaker" i could go on and on about how he was not by any means a good person. So i go on In this person profile they say all kinds of things that point to thier life being amazing and that thier third child is on the way and how thier life is amazing and that thier life is amazing....ahhhh .

Just yesterday i was feeling good about things, about my life and all the things that are in it but today, today things have changed, and a fellow blogger once said just a phone call can change your life well also knowing the past can too, i may not be in the right to feel jelous or angry a the person whom i didnt even realy know but i think to myself why would they be deserving of what they have. Me, who had good grades and now has a college degree, but still working at Longhorn Steakhouse ( i love it) and actually for shits and gigles my bro and i just applied to mcdonalds!! haha i at first thought it was funny and thinking that i am overqualified and that it would be easy money just for the short 5-10 morning shift that i applied for, but now that i have seen this profile of these "losers" in high school who have such a great life now three children. This makes me wonder am i happy? I want to be happy so maybe becasue i want it so bad i pretend to be. My emotions are masked and foggy right now with my husband gone so i guess i really dont know how i feel. I did say this morning on the phone with my husband "i dont want ot fight anymore, when you come home, i dont want to" he replied i dont either. HA easy to say that, lets see if that actually happens.

It seems like all the people i talk to and now all the rpofiles i see say all these things about how they dont have problems in thier relationships and this just makes me think of how i do! I try to recolect the memories of colombia this past December and all i remember are he bad times. I for real can only remember one good day!! It was so good that day ws very nice but is that one day enough?


Like i said i really hope that these are my masked emotions and forgotten emotions becasue he has been away for so long.


One thing that is really funny, he is not the type nor does he have the intelligence to find this blog. read this blog and then fix things...1. he doesnt know how to find it, 2. he would not be able to understand after reading this many words in english. 3. He is obvlivious to the fact that there may be something wrong, that maybe we should not be together.


How can i have these feelings and yet i call him everyday and say i want to hug him?


How is it fair? I can only conclude that it is my fault, my fault that i one married him, two have stayed through these tough times and three havent left yet!!! So me blaming myself puts me right back into the circle of pity. I cant do this. I need happyness!!


So hopefully Feb 19 comes faster then it should and he comes home and my emotions get unmasked and they are let out and i feel the real emotions of love and passion for what should be the happiest part of my life!!

A Good Day

So I began the day humming the Jeopardy song in the words of Burr you know like, Burr Burr Burr Burr, ok doesent work when i type. I then went and had a treat of a day and went to a scrapbooking store, got our nails and feet done and then lunch. I must say today was a good day. It being the second day in a row i have had off, this must be part of this good day/ feeling i am having. There are no Missing Pedros, or Financial stress (although that is present, I dont feel burdened!!) Its just happy day for me.

I must also say that my computer is doing that thing where when you try and fix a typo, it writes over that letter so you have to write the whole sentence over again, you obviously knowiam not one for fixing my typos, but when i do takethe time to fix them please work with me here!! See the words with no spaces yea that is becasue i cant fix it they will erase and i will have to write this whole paragrph over, oops cant put an a in paragraph anymore either!!


Ok This has bummed me out cant really type anymore!! and if i do its gonna be rambling....sooo ta ta for now