Oh My I wrote a Post!!

I know you all missed me and i feel bad. No more worries for i am here and i am queer. Really that last sentence is more true than you know. Like four days ago i had a brilliant idea for a new post in my ever so confusing blog, but of course, i forgot and did not write it and so here i am rambling rambles of ramblness.

I have a few good ideas for upcoming blogs, and why i need to have these new ideas is becsaue ever since my computer crashed and i have not had the money to fix it i am no longer in the groove of my blog. Thus, to get me back i need to have a new motivation as to why i should come into my brothers room and write a blog while he is trying to watch tv but indefinetly cant becasue of my keyboard clatter. ( i just read that to him, he laughed).

Ideas;
I have been having for the last month or so crazy, vivd, dreams. I could become the next Stephen King. Only Candace Gomez. er ahem

If i was sticking to my guns, i would be writing to you that it has been just over a month since the big fight with DH and i have not said or called anyone to tell them that he is in fact changing, for one becasue i wanted it to be real and for two i guess casue i reeeally wanted it to be real.\

Or i would be rambling on to tell you that my brother is really wanting me to play ping pong with him right now, but i choose to write to you faithful followers.

I created a dunkin donut and am now awaiting the call from Dunkins to to tell me i won.

OOOOh here is a good topic. DH or as i like to refer to him as AP and APP. If you think to ask when you see me then ask but for sensativity reasons i will not share what these mean on here. All you need to know is that he was AP and is now APP.

We have successfully tried making a baby for 2 months now. First month ended in a roaring, raging AF and second month is pending, so when i say successfully what i mean is i actually got him to participate. Well AP would have anwsered a thought i had a few days ago, the thought being "Papi I dont think it worked this time either" on the subject of baby making, i dont know why i said it, maybe just to get a reaction out of him, which i guess in hindsight is a little mind gamish and i dont like that. Well anyway AP would have responded something along the lines of "good" or "few" with a big sigh of relief but APP anwsered "dont say that"!!! as if to say he was hoping it did!!! What really ? is this happening. He is currently changing and i hope it does not stop.

HI

I apologize, I have not written in a while. Many things have been happening and if your close enough to me you know a lot of whats been happening. Thank you for the support. Among other things my computer has officially crapped the bed and will only be fized when i have the money and that is low on the priority list becasue there are two other computers in my house so hopefully (wink, wink) and can use those if need be.

UPDATE
Everything is going good. Trying to find a morning job is not going so good :(

I was good today..

Ha So yea i was good today, better than yesterday or the day before.


Then my husband came home, he tells me his sister is going to have a girl.

I said ha thats funny they only had a boys name picked out.

He says; "yea, there happy, but..."


ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME BUT, BUT WHAT YOUR FUCKING PREGNANT SHUT UP AND DEAL WITH THE PAIN AND ACHES AND YOUR HUSBAND BEING SOOOO NICE TO YOU AND NOW OH MY OH NO ITS A DAMN GIRL THATS SO SAD AND HEART BREAKING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH HHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My brain has gone away.

I need to apologize for my craziness earlier, I am sorry.


I have since calmed down, and of course have gone right back to my blog. I love my blog. It is this tunnel that brings me to a lone paradise where all is clear and safe. It has no openings where i can fall or get hurt or have emotions. I frikken love it. This is my winter motorcycle. AAAAgghhh. (big sigh of relief)


My hubby and I went to Stella Blu tonight. It was delectible. I highly reccomend, but remeber we are not picky, for those of you who are (you know who you are,he he ).

I have a cold. A full blown cold, finally it took like three days to get here. First the scratchy thoat, and than a headache, and then the eyes get watery. Right now i am expierencing a itchy throat and need to go take something casue its f*ing annoying.


I must end on short notice, for my cat is stabbing me in the arm, an arm that is halping me write this and so i say good night. I need to pay atention to my cat.